Lately I’ve had difficulty putting the words in my head to paper. Instead I’ve found myself glued to the TV, yelling at the screen as every day another attack on human rights happens in America.
It’s been a struggle to stay positive, which in turn can make it hard to write a happy love story. I find myself physically and mentally exhausted at the end of each day and many times end up looking at a blank page.
My mind feels like quicksand. The flow of words are stuck deep down and formulating them is too much. But that’s when I know I have to keep trying. We all have to keep trying. Now, I’m not saying I don’t lose the battle some of those days. But giving in completely means giving up what I love.
I think most people are like that. Things will get us down, and we may wallow for a short time, but we fight it. We know if we give in for good, the despair has won.
So as much as I want to stay up-to-date with the continuing crisis in America, I allow myself to turn the TV and social media off and take a much needed break. It gives me the chance to refresh, rethink, and recharge. And I only let myself wallow for so long.
Wow, not the most uplifting post, huh? I guess what I’m getting at is this: even when we’re not feeling it, at some point we have to push through or we’ve lost the battle.
So I may look at those blank pages some days and maybe I only type out a few awful sentences. But sometimes it’s not about what I write, it’s about not giving up. So what if I have to edit them, or completely delete them, the next day? At least I tried.
And that’s what life is all about. Trying even when it seems impossible. It’s what makes us human—that all-consuming drive to succeed.
What is your passion? What is it that keeps you going on those days you want to bury your head in the sand or go to bed at 5PM? Dancing? Acting? Your pets? For my brother, it’s baseball. One of my best friends paints. Comment below and let me know what you’re passionate about!