Release Day Jitters
It's release day for Love in the Clouds and I am a wreck. I go through this every time I have something new come out. Writing is so personal and no matter what I write, I always leave a piece of myself in the story. And this one? So much of myself went into it.
Growing up, flying was a big part of my life. My grandparents, my dad, and both of his brothers were pilots. My dad even built a two-seater, single engine Mustang. He started out building the wings in the basement, then moved them to a hangar at the local airport, where he finished it. I don't have a lot of good memories of my dad, but those revolving around the plane and flying are memories I hold dear.
Researching for this story brought back a lot of those good memories and I found myself lost in it all. I even dug out old photos (sharing one with you of the wing when it was still in the basement of the house). I enjoyed writing this so much I’m already working on another story based in the same town (and will have flying in it again). It’s a love story for two characters introduced in the book. I’ll let you guess which two!
So, putting so much of myself into a story is hard- even when it’s something small or possibly insignificant- because I’m letting part of who I am show. Being a shy person, that can be overwhelming.
But that’s not the only reason I have jitters. As each release day nears, I grow increasingly convinced I will be found out- that I’m just a fraud trying to write. I think most writers go through it- most likely anyone in the arts does.
Once release day hits, I usually calm down. I guess it’s just become a part of my “New Release Ritual”. But I keep writing my stories because I just can’t stop myself! It's funny when I think about it. I get the jitters when I have a story coming out, but the way I calm down is to write. Like I said, i just can't stop myself.
Here's the picture of the airplane wing I mentioned. And the second image is a little ditty I wrote up to the tune of the Flintstones theme song. I'm sorry if it gets into you head. It certainly wouldn't get out of mine!
You can find out more information about Love in the Clouds here.